Well, no baby this month. Darn. Yesterday was really difficult. I cried in Spencer's lap. I cried to my mom on the phone. But, that was yesterday.
Today. Today I am more hopeful. I don't know why. Because it didn't work. I still don't know why it won't work. I still don't know when it will work. And, most of my friends still have babies/are pregnant. But, I feel hopeful today, even though I am doubled over with cramps and have been taking pain pills like crazy (but not overdosing, mind you).
I am hopeful because I have felt Heavenly Fathers love for me a lot the past few days. I know that he is mindful of me and our little family. I know he has a plan for me. I know that I will get to be a mom... someday. I am grateful that he has given me hope to get me through the hard times. So though no answers have come, I have a good feeling in my heart. I am going to do all I can to hold on to it.