I recently made a big decision. I have decided to share my feelings about infertility on this blog. Why?
One thing I really hope to gain from this trial, is an ability to comfort those who share my same struggles. I feel so deeply for those who would like to start a family, but can’t. I wish all the time there was something I could do to reach out, to lift and inspire. I can’t do this if I am not willing to be open about my experiences. In the past I have been very private about our situation. I did not want to appear to be a whiner by talking about the things that are so difficult for me. I did not want to feel vulnerable. I did not want everyone to know that I was broken. I was scared how I would feel if people didn’t reach back, after it had taken so much courage for me to share a painful part of myself. I am trying to let those fears go.
I will still share crafts and pictures and things that inspire me. This is my blog, so I thought I would share more of me than rather than compartmentalize my life. Creativity. Infertility. Spirituality. These are all a part of who I am. I think there is reason to share each of these in the same space because they are all what make me, me.